My brother called me at two this morning. My best friend who saved me from the accident died. So that really came as a shock to me. I just... I don't know what I'm going to do now. He's always been there for me, and whenever I'm in trouble I always turn to him for answers. I still can't believe this happened. I'm in so much pain right now.

I feel like my heart is missing. I can't feel it. My pulse is so slow and weak. He was a constant part of my life, every day, and now he's gone. I didn't even get to tell him yesterday how much I love him.

I'm not a Twilight fan, but I have read the books. When Bella said she had that hole in her chest where her heart used to be... That's how I feel.

So I probably won't get on for a while. I'm going to update and post pictures of my car, but that's it.

- Yoko